.tied up.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

row

will i get to row today?
3 hours to go.
he walked into the room and said, "jude, can i request that you don't go today?"
"why?"
"i think if you're out of it, you shouldn't go back"
"but it's not an official thing, i'm not oging back to canoeing"
"but once you start, you never know how much time it'll take away from you"
"but, i really want to go, i haven't done this in ages"
"you have other chances in the future"
"i don't"
(in my head, i'm not in alumni, i'm not fit to row with them, now that i get a chance to row, without the pressures, i really want to, i want to feel the breeze, feel the water, smell the bad air, and yet feel so excited and happy as before, something i haven't felt in ages)
he walks to my room,
walks back into the studyroom
"you've got worship practice on sat, leading cell worship on sat, hosting cell at our place on sat, your whole sat's booked!"
"i know but..."
i look down, and try to get back to chemistry.
he sighs, disappointed, he walks up the stiars towards his room,
stops, "think about it"
and continues up.
ahhh. i need to talk to someone.
jia's at training now. del's not replying.
i'm confused.
i had diarrhoea again today.
this is bad.
diarrhoea and pimples aren't the best of things you wanna have.

[ Jude whispered ][ 10:58 AM ]

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